Announcement: Internet is back and fully operating! I know you've all been missing me lots. Haha. Perasan betul ini budak =P
Anyway, below is my timetable for Sem 2, 2007. Quite good but not without a price to pay. Oh wells, shall savour the nice timetable for now.
Nothing much to update about. Doubt I will be anytime soon too, or maybe I have to. Upload all the pictures from the past few outings. But I'm switching blogs. So hmmm...maybe I'll post them there.
Missed me? *grins* Sorry peeps but internet is down and I've got no idea when it'll be up and running again, hopefully asap, but I've been hoping for that since about 3 weeks back and it's still down, so hmmm...maybe I need more people to pray =P
Exams finally ended on the faithful 26th of June, and I've been bunking in the city with my beloved uncle, aunt and cousin who came over on the 23rd for a holiday here in Melbourne. So, I've been becoming a tourist with them, with the benefits of not taking out money. Lols. But they've gone to Sydney now.
As far as exams are concerned, at this very moment I'm a little, wait not little, but very worried about them. The papers were alright though, I just suddenly feel afraid of judgement day. Oh wells, that's in about another week's time, so I might as well enjoy my holidays first.
Je Yon is here, and I've only met up with him once so far. Soon, soon. I hope. Luqman is over for transfer. Along with Rachel, Jocelyn Quek and Jane!!!!! I'm so glad they are all here. Especially Jane! [we didn't take picture the other day leh....]
Without the internet, I've had some peace from some issues. The downside however is that I haven't had the chance to look for a car. I need a car soon. I'm halfway writing my resume, so I can look for a part time job. Preferably a once a week job.
Ellie, I miss you lots. Heh. But I think the whole no internet has taught me not to be so dependant on others. Good I guess. Heartache will always be around but it's a matter of how we handle it, I suppose.
Shi Wei, hope you enjoy your holidays. Brandon, that goes to you too =)
Aimi babe, I love getting those postcards from you. Thanks a bunch and all the best with your exams.
Myn wee, start enjoying your holidays. Get well soon ya!
Timothy, you're missing in action like me. I hope things are going fine, and hope your dad is doing better =)
JasonC, it's happening. Not that you'll get what I mean by "it's" anyway. I miss the times I can just rant and get rather random, occasionally nonsense, sometimes very meaningful advise from ya. Please take care of your beloved items properly from now onwards. And you can still have the songs if you really want from my place. There's a backup there. Haha. Krystle, you have no idea how surprise I was to hear your voice when you called me a week or so ago. Miss ya lots. And hope things are going on fine for you =)
Guang, enjoying your time with Joyce? Hehe. Remember, you said you'll email. Hahahaha. I'm waiting =P
Last but not least, I'm shifting my blog. But I'll do it when I have proper internet connection. Can't do it now.
I'm back!!!! As always, there's an increase in the number of post as my exams draw closer. Gosh, do I have priority issues =P
Feeling a little restless at the moment. Pretty sick of reading up on all those Immunology notes. Doesn't help when a few of my friends are actually having an exam tomorrow, a day before Immuno, while I fully focus on that. Well, I guess the price I pay is SCI2010 and Finance back to back on Monday and Tuesday. Nothing is fair in life. Or maybe that's a little too harsh. Sometimes life ain't all great. Hehe.
Skype does wonders. Had a short but definitely a great moment, chatting with Aimi, my best friend since ages ago. Still want to start counting the years?? =P It was just so wonderful to hear her voice again. We have survived not living down the road from one another for about 4 years now. Sure, we no longer get to just intrude into each other's house [though technically we still could, if I were back in Malaysia. Just need to drive instead]. But the occasional "keep-in-touch" calls and chats is enough. Very much enough.
I'm having little bubbles in me. Good and bad ones. Bad ones at my tummy, good ones in my head. Okay, that was a really bad description. I'm a little restless at the moment. I should be sleeping soon, as I need to tune my body clock a bit, for preparation of my morning exam on Tuesday. Or maybe I'll rely on stress and chicken essence!!! Hehe.
Oh. Did you know, in a few days time, dreamangels.blogdrive.com is officially 3 years old? Yays!!! *thinks back* My early day entries are so embarassing. My language is horrendous, not that it's any better now. But my flow of thoughts and my writing skills have changed, quite a bit, if not a lot.
Did you know it's winter already? The temperature is dropping as each day goes by. I have yet to freeze but I might real soon. Boy, I cannot wait to get through with all my exam papers. Shall enjoy myself, and hopefully fix some "mishaps" that have occured along the way of Semester 1, and also embrace the familiar faces that are reaching just days after my exams are over to do their Semester 2 here. *smiles of joy*
I'm a little hyper. On stress, I tell you. And on the feeling of hopelessness. It's terrifyingly quiet. It has been the whole day. Production level has been mediocre and I seem to be the one ranting, not others. Not right. Not good. But there are still FOUR more papers to battle against and hopefully I conquer them all. Wish me luck, my dear readers, while I wish my other friends luck too.
Sorry. A word that cuts if used multiple times in an ocassion. Well, for me at least. People who know me, knows why. But at this moment, I give up with the whole pretending game. Pretending to guess, assuming and interpreting things, caring for feelings of others, while trying real hard to keep facts in my brain. I've got enough drama in my life as it is already.
Sometimes I'm not sure if what I'm doing is right or wrong. I try not to repeat or let repetition of the past happen. Because the guilt I carry is enough to haunt me till this very day. Not many know this, and I guess it is best to remain as it is.
I can be very sensitive, most of the time. While many think it's good, because I actually know when a friend or family member is having troubles, it is something I'm not entirely proud of all the time. Because it eats me inside, at times.
Wouldn't it be nice if the person you love, would also love you back? Everybody's dream, yet only some achieve it. But we're all still young, at least we try to remind ourselves that we are. It hurts to see happy couples occasionally, but it also shows that timing is an important factor. And when it is time, it will be time.
Life is pathetic. Life sucks. Life is too complicated. I've been hearing that a lot lately. Sometimes I do agree, and other times, I think we just look at all the negative sides, we forget to look at the positive sides. I'm having the exam blues, plus personal issues and other outside drama. So, forgive me as this post sounds a little too emo.
It's time for me to get some shut eye, and be productive tomorrow morning. To all my friends facing exams too, Good Luck!!! May we all win this battle and celebrate the short freedom after =)
It's coming to 4 months since you first arrived in Australia, a country
of which you have always wanted to return to, just to have a glimpse of
what was left behind 13 to 14 years ago. Congratulations as you are
doing quite well, or rather better than you yourself have expected.
Life ain't fun, not all the time, at least. But honestly, you know
that life is being really kind to you. With the not-so-tight and crazy
university schedule, with the not-so-insane amount of workload and
deadlines. Even you exams ain't too bad in comparison to others.
Perhaps, you shouldn't compare to others. Just take a look back at last
semester. This semester is definitely more kind to you. Smile, my dear.
Looking back is good, just to remind yourself what are the important
things and people in your life. But do remember that we all need to
move forward. It's not easy, I know, without your close family members and friends. You can't always expect things to turn out the way you want them to be. You can't continue on to imagine the what could have beens and the what would have beens.
Because they are simply thoughts and imaginations that are not reality.
Maybe if you were living multiple lives at one go, then you'll be able
to take the many pathways along this journey you travel in. But
you can only pick one, and when you have, like now, stick to it and
continue to live your life to the fullest. It simply isn't worth it to
constantly worry about what might have been.
You made the right choice, about 2 years ago, when you let go of the
sufferings the both of you were carrying. The road has not been smooth,
but it's getting there. Be happy. Just a few months ago, you made a
choice to not inform, and you very well know that it was the wise
choice. Rationale has always been your thing, and it has made you the
person you are. Be happy because there are many people out there who
loves you to bits. You may not be experiencing what many others at your
age are, but really, you know well enough that you're not the
only one. So, stop feeling so pathetic about yourself. There will be
someone, one day. Just not at this instant. Maybe tomorrow, maybe
months, maybe weeks, or maybe even years. You're doing real fine, girl.
You are.
Live through life no matter what is being thrown at you. You know your
life isn't all that bad. You may been going through a rough time alone
right now, but that does not mean that the life ahead is going to be
constantly dark. There will be light ahead. You just need to keep
moving forward. Eventually, you will see light.
Be the best you can be. Do not let negativity bring you down. This is
only the beginning towards adulthood. The naiveness and innocence of
childhood can no longer be own, but that does not mean that you cannot
pretend for a moment, just like the days you flew off to neverland
while having the lovely chocolate fountain. Smile, for your imagination
can bring you everywhere you want, just do not let it be your fall.
The friends you've made along the way will always be there,
somewhere. Don't give up on them, not when they are supporting you.
Remember that they are always going to love you, just the way you are.
Just like how you'll always put their feelings first, before yours,
despite how much pain it gave you. An extremely sensitive person. That
was what you and her called yourselves. That has not changed. You've
only become a better daughter, sister and friend to others. If they
don't see it, that doesn't mean you're a bad one. It only means that
everyone have their own opinion.
Stop your worries, about yourself. All those suspicions remains
so, until you get an answer. The answers which will only come when a
move is made to get them. If you're too afraid to make that move, then
erase these thoughts and find something else to worry about. Because
these worries are eating you up inside, and you know it.
Enjoy being the you now. Be confident, and smile more. One day, you will realize that this is just life.
